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School this last week, and every day (keeps getting better and deeper)

Sneak peak into Revival Group this past Monday 
"So good. Wow, Wow, Wow... So thankful for Ben Wilson. Such an amazing pastor and father in the faith. He exemplifies a heart after God and a love for people like few people I have ever seen. On top of that, his friends that he brings to revival group are just like him in their lives as well and that is the best type of leadership you can bring. So thankful for Michael Koulianos and Richard Gordon also - guys who just want Jesus at any price. Wow, what a year. People seeking Jesus with all that is in them - no pretense, just pure love... What a privilege to be here...." 



Then we had Danny Silk deliver an incredible message on "Culture of Honor" and "Keep Your Love On" (cannot wait to read both books)


Mark Brookes preaching on THE 500th year reformation anniversary (Oct. 31 2017) and some powerful Bible History, as he always does! 


Paul Manwaring bringing the Word on apostolic calling and giftings in administration being just as powerful and important as Evangelism.


Dan Mccolum (below) brought the FIRE of revival and living from the fullness of God.  Living on the right side of the cross, not for forgiveness (which we have been freely given by His grace and by faith in Jesus alone) but FROM HIS FULLNESS. Jesus paid it ALL.  Whew!


THEN WE HAD TODD WHITE!  I mean...we are so blessed with these front runners and trailblazers for the gospel of Jesus Christ!  

Watch TODD WHITE preaching to BSSM First Year







Gold Digger- BSSM Costume party time

God pushes us passed our "limits" so that we can become who HE already sees that we ARE  His love is the foundation and security to accept the challenge. #Heislove #sowecanbeloved #andbelove

Celebrating one of my sweet friend Eloise's birthday! She is from Switzerland :) She had a costume themed birthday party and then went to another costume party, fundraiser dance, for some fellow BSSM second and third year students.  It was magical and so fun! Love this community and family and learning how FUN God is!  The JOY of the LORD is our strength!  OH yes and I won the costume contest haha! It was a team effort- my roommate helped me with the creative idea-- notice the shovel in my hand ;) I was a gold digger ha!  And the prize for the contest was $20 to Mod pizza, which I had been really wanting to try but just wasn't about to be going and spending the money when I am such a saver. And then look what God did...oh yeah! He gifted me with the dinner...so my sweet Katie and I went together and had ourselves the yummiest gluten free pizza after church last Sunday.

Gold Digger - digging the gold out of people 😂🤷‍♀️😜🤣#costumecontest #happybdayEloise #DreamTeam #mypeoples#lovethem #somuch #wildones 












Happy Birthday Daddy

Happy Birthday Daddy 🎈Remembering and missing your massive heart and love today #MartinMcKenna 







Yeah today was hard & beautiful simultaneously. It's real. My roommates pulled me onto the couch this morning & proceeded to tickle my back & love on me while I wept/poured my heart out. The skies happened to be pouring theirs out as well ☔️ 💦 which I absolutely love. When I was little I would say that the rain was heaven's angels crying tears of joy over us & displaying God's majesty. Stunning. Not only do I miss my earthly daddy but I miss my mom (we usually spend this day together). But God marked this day as unforgettable. A day that now has a signpost of His goodness, provision and love as a Father towards His daughter Malorie. Beauty from ashes. I no longer have to live in orphan mentality, or lack. My Heavenly Father owns the universe and He IS provision. I'm choosing to partner with His Truth rather than my feelings/circumstances. He says we have not because we ask not-- He knows our motives & is a Good faithful Father. So as I'm pouring my heart out, my roommate says Holy Spirit put it strongly on her heart to donate to my missions trip & pay my deposit (which was due today @ 5). Wow. She reminded me that it was my Father that paid-not her. 🙌 Then I'm at Trader Joe's honestly hoping to not see anyone as I had been a mess crying, messy bun to match, & in my pj's (comfy's I call them). I see this beautiful sweetheart friend / sister in Christ who works there & brightens my day every time I grocery shop. She asks how I am & I can't help but be honest about my head space, day & dad's Birthday. With loving tears in her eyes she hugs me & encourages my heart & journey; giving me permission to be sad & embrace the beauty that is in the "messy healing process" in this safe catalytic place. We are both BSSM students. She runs & gifts me these lovely pink roses. Wow. Another gift from Daddy God!! I go to church tonight in my sweats, makeup-less, barely made it through the doors without more tears & am met with abounding love from Daddy again by the sweetest mama figure in my revival & small group. She hugs me & wont let go, then prays over me one of the most moving prayers, full of God's love & grace #EncounteringFathersLove #operationnomasks #knownandloved



Australiaaaaa

God pushes us passed our "limits" so that we can become who HE already sees that we ARE  His love is the foundation and security to accept the challenge. #Heislove #sowecanbeloved #andbelove

Will you support me?
Hello beautiful friends and family! Most of you know I am going to school here at Bethel First Year. I cannot thank you enough for the flood of love, support, prayers, encouraging cards/emails, financial blessings and more! You are incredible, and I literally wouldn't be here without you! You have no idea how much God has showered His love on me through you all. When He opened this door after WorshipU I knew it was going to be life-changing, but little did I know, God was going to send me on the wildest adventure and journey of my life. I have never been stretched/challenged more, never had to face more fears (and kick em in the face by His Spirit and grace), never been felt more encouraged and loved (by my incredible Bethel family and all of you), never encountered God's love to these heights & depths, been called to my highest and best, been shown what and who I am through Father God's eyes. And it's just barely month three. Now I have the honor and amazing opportunity (early this spring) to be sent out to give away and pour out the overflow of what God is giving me. I get to be the salt and light in AUSTRALIA. Help me with the privilege to get to be the encounter with Jesus, to this world  I must raise $3300 to get to Ausralia. If you feel in your heart to give, even just a $1, it will greatly bless me and help me go on my very first mission trip! God bless you so much and thank you so much! P.S. Your prayers, love and encouragement mean just as much to me as a financial contribution to this trip. I love you all! Direct link below to Bethel Missions (Malorie McKenna- Australia East). I would love to share more about my journey here and also for the trip-- feel free to personal message me or give me a call! Can't wait to see all God is going to do and to share all He has done so far! xoxoxo 
Love in Him, Malorie
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Painting the restrooms and restoring playgrounds in Redding, Ca with my City Service dream team!  Getting ready for international Missions with Bethel!  Can't wait to serve Australia and show them the love of God! 

Abide


Do you ever feel like you operate in a certain lane very easily and frequently, until you get around certain people or personality types? Say for instance you frequent the "funny and charismatic" lane on the regular; yet intimidation, nerves, awkwardness, and past experience, comes in to warp your vantage point, blind you and suddenly you are bumped off your lane and can't find your way back quickly enough. I believe as Christ followers, and sons and daughters of Almighty God, we operate and run on a "rooted and grounded in HIS love" highway that has permanent signposts on it of AUTHORITY, POWER, PURPOSE, VICTORY, WORTH, GRACE, TRUTH and more. The more we "keep our mind stayed upon Him," Isaiah 26:3 style, the more "perfect peace" we will be living in and from. "Turn your eyes upon Jesus, look full in His wonderful face. And the things of earth will grow strangely dim, in the light of His glory and grace."

I started wondering why it is that when I get around someone I admire, someone in authority whom I respect, a group of people I don't know well, or just someone I desire to connect with, that I am on some foreign lane, or highway even, that is not the "me being my fullest self in Christ" lane. It often ends up somewhere around this radio station: "me moonlighting as some kind of awkward, timid, diluted, forced version of myself that lands nowhere near the real me fully expressed." In this foreign lane I tend to not speak up, or I hide, or I try to and then it comes out all wrong, or not loud enough for anyone to hear or just easy enough to be ignored. The enemy has played on this many times, but no more, as I shed His glorious light upon it and let Him lovingly lead me. The flip-side of the awkward, is that I can be with a dear friend, family member, or sometimes even a complete stranger, and be in my lane on cruise control. This is where I am wonderfully free to be the me He created me to be. Which in return helps others feel free to be themselves even more. Hmm, so I ponder why can't I easily find my way back to that designated, etched out power lane with God whenever I want and need to? Especially in sed situations.

There is something about coming from a place of knowing I am truly and deeply loved that wipes out intimidation, and breeds an environment of security, trust and safety where you blossom and grow in your own skin. Sometimes I just know that environment exists within, and with, the person or group I am interacting with. There is an established and trusted history to operate and move fluidly upon. Or there are certain personality types that are so secure in who they are and which lane they are on in Him, that I feel more secure, making it easier for that expression to come out. I want to be one of those people to others and for others. I admire so much when I see a friend of mine being fully herself/himself in a group setting and watching how that blesses others with God's presence and the gifts He carries in them. I am getting to see the amazing person that I know and love in private, arise and shine forth in every environment publicly. It is especially exciting to celebrate a friend who has come out from under a cloak and yoke of hiding, who is now foraging THAT lane, with God, in open fields of grace. I will just watch and observe and thank God for how my friend is blossoming and shining into their new normal, and think to myself, "Yeah! That's my [girl]! WhoooO! Everyone is getting to see how wonderful and multi-faceted [she] truly is." How blessed I feel to be behind the scenes in someones life and then witness both their public and private victories. How much more does God feel this way toward us beloved?? More than we know.

This identity crisis, so to speak, is broken when a heart is bowed and postured before His throne, in His presence and love, at all times. Knowing you belong. Knowing you have been adopted into a family. KNOWING YOU ARE LOVED perfectly by GOD.

Here is the thing, "IN HIM we move, live and have our being."- Acts 17:28. Everything is and will ever be an overflow of His extravagant love for us, in us and through us. That's the firm foundation our lives can live from, He is. Christ the cornerstone, our Rock and solid ground. But if I am still unsure of the goodness of His love, unsure if I can trust Him, unsure of His love for me and His goodness overall, then I must start there and yet always stay there. "If you don't know His love you'll work to earn it, but if you know His love you'll live to display it. If you know His love you'll live and walk in His fullness. To know the love of God is to be filled to the fullness of God that is in Christ Jesus."- Todd White.

My roomie Laura and I were having an incredible conversation this morning about all of this, and God just showed up. I mean He is always, Emmanuel, God with us. But He is just starting to speak even more loudly and clearly to us, or maybe just tuning our ears to hear. All that to say, I couldn't help but grab my pen and journal to write notes on what He was speaking over us, hence the birth of this blog post. There is so much He is unlocking that I've never ever seen before. At retreat this last week, He literally transplanted my eyes for HIS very own eyes to see. I am seeing things like new, like Him. So beautiful! SO thankful! So as we were discussing this deeply, my incredible Laura shared these song lyrics with me (among so many other things she shared and showed me). Listen and read the lyrics below and chew on them for a bit. *Imagine Daddy GOD singing this to you, and over you, beloved. Just let HIM love YOU! SOAK.*





WOW. So when I am feeling like I can't find my way back to my lane, I am going to let Him love me. Let Him remind me who I am. Until that lane becomes the only lane on which I travel for the rest of my days. Abiding. Remaining. In my lane always, in His love. Forever (literally). How lucky that we get to stay there, in that place with Him, living out of that, with Him, into eternity. So I am growing in His love, and the revelation of His love for me is being magnified. It will become my new autopilot to always travel and remain in this lane with Him, not in some rote way, but in a 'new creation normal' way. Heart steadfast, mind stayed and fixed upon Him. (I imagine it like those little trains on the tracks that go round and round and never change lanes). Stay on your lane with God, follow as He leads and know He wants you there with Him, always. He loves YOUR presence.

You are a treasure not to be hidden but to be known and seen, so Your Father can shine through you and be on display for all the world to see and know HIS love for them. Don't beat yourself up if you can't "get there" or stay in and on your lane yet / in certain situations. There is a glorious unfolding happening as you fold into His perfect love; He is disclosing His masterpiece to the world. HE is doing it for you, as you "let Him love you, He will take you there." No one can reduce or discredit your voice. You are not too broken to be heard or to carry greatness. The Truth is YOU CARRY GREATNESS. Oh YES beloved, GREATER IS HE that is IN YOU, than he that is in the world. You see we are just jars of clay, to show that this ALL SURPASSING POWER within us is from GOD not from us. Just keep abiding and folding into His love.

Got to play in the studio today-- Recording-- Dreaming






After a long and amazing week of school ...roomies and I watching Christmas movies :) Oh yeah! We are meant for each other haha! 
 My sweet girl Katie! Cannot express how thankful I am she is in my revival group and God connected our hearts a month before I even moved here or got accepted into school. WOW! And of 1,300 students-- GOD WOULD put us in the same revival group.  He is SO good! Good, good Father!

A kind friend and brother in Christ drew this for me after I had some  of God showing me that I am His rose and His princess.  Literally had several of me as His princess and then that I am a rose of all flowers, like in Beauty and the Beast :) And then that the rose is actually the beautiful ballgown skirt I am twirling around in-- HIS love. So beautiful!


MOM bought and sent me a book-bag for school! :)) LOVE IT! So thankful for how God provides in every little way-- He loves to surprise us with GOOD GIFTS from above-- James 1:17


Pastor Ben's Birthday & My City Service Project

Celebrating my Revival Group Pastor's Birthday (Click link to watch video of us)


I finally picked my top 5 choices (out of about 75 amazing options) for my CITYSERVICE project. As students at Bethel, we get the opportunity to serve the community of Redding and all the surrounding cities -- in hospitals, homeless shelters, retirement homes, rehabs, sex-trafficking cultures and environments, women's shelters, churches, and even just in the local businesses and streets of town and SO much more.  I wanted to do them ALL to be honest!  But I know God knows which one He can best utilize my time, talents and service in each week. I am so excited to see HIM move through us, as we serve with His love, and get to be His hands and feet united together in Christ for the sake of the world.  (my top five choices pictured below) Jesus we trust You!  Place me where you want me, send me where I can be used most by You! You know best Father God :)