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This one's for PB & J. Pastor Brian and Jaime...soo cute!!! My roommate Jaime is like the best roommate/big sister/friend a girl could ask for. God divinely connected us all the way from Cali to Bama...no joke...it's been a perfect fit since day one. Only God could have done it!!! So I have a beautiful fairy-tale romance...written by God Himself to share with ya'll. It is a story of hope and patience in waiting on true love. Obviously God is our first true love and really the only true love of our lives, but He also created an Adam for us ladies. Jaime's story is living proof of this.

So the very first night I get here...after driving across the country with Casey, Jaime takes Casey and I out to eat some southern food. haha well Zaxby's...southern enough and we had never had it before so it was fun! On our drive there, Jaime gets a call from her sister who has been trying to spark Jaime's interest about this guy (Brian) that she had gone to Lee University with. They were both in the choir together...in fact, I believe he was the president of the choir. So it was hilarious...watching/listening to this conversation Jaime was having with her sister and then her mother...both wanting to reconnect these two. Jaime was so funny as she giggled along with it and put her mom on speaker phone...me and casey got to join in on the fun! It was exciting and mysterious but we had no idea where he lived now. Come to find out later that he was in Georgia...only two hours from us in Bama. He messaged her on Facebook, after being prompted by Jaime's sister or maybe it was his sister...not sure.
Anyways, that very first night, I just had this gut feeling that he was the one...I cannot explain it. Uncanny really...I just knew there was something special...by their story, the way Jaime was acting and her mom and sister...there was something much bigger going on than just meets the eye. God's ways are above our ways : )

The first three weeks or so of my living here, I saw Jaime go on several dates...I was impressed at how fearless she was. She would go on a dinner date here and a coffee date there...but nothing ever really clicked. Lots of first dates, no second dates. It was fun watching her get all dolled up and then when she came back a couple hours later we got to bond over it and talk about the dates. I still had this gut feeling about Brian...so I kept asking her about him. She said they had been corresponding online but she didn't know because he was living in Georgia. I could still see the excitement and joy light up in her eyes when she did talk about him. A few weekends later they set up a date. Brian drove to Bama to take Jaime out on a saturday. He was driving this way because he had a job opportunity as a worship pastor a couple hours north of us-so it worked out perfectly. I got to see her get all dolled up again but something was different this time. I saw the gleam in her eyes and also the anxiousness...it was a new adventure...uncharted territory. I smiled back with this "I know" kind of smile...if that makes any sense.

They went to lunch and ice-cream together...and when she got home I was expecting we would sit and chat about it. Well I actually heard a deep voice entering the house. I was in the kitchen so I couldn't see anything. I heard Jaime's heels click/clack as she entered the kitchen with this HUGE smile. The date was written all over her face...fabulous!!!!! She kind of whispered a few things to me about it and gave me a big thumbs up. I wanted to leap up for JOY and clap...but I restrained myself bc I knew there was someone else in the house. She asked me (she is very thoughtful that way) if I would feel comfortable meeting him. WOW! Big step. I had not met any other guy that she had gone on a first date with. This was another good tell-tale sign. I of course, said YES YES YES!! So she click/clacked back to the living room and said to him "You can meet my roommate, Malorie"...it was cute. Then he said "Oh I can, can I?!?!" It was written in the context...the nonverbal language, the tone of voice...everything. It was like...'yes, you can meet my roommate, I give you permission now.' I think all three of us knew this was kind of a big deal...haha in a silly way...but it meant so much more than it really was.

I was anxious and excited to finally meet him and more importantly to see them interact with each other. You see I am a big observer and a highly sensitive person (which is not always a negative thing hahah) so I love to watch people's interactions. I did major in interpersonal communications and nonverbal language after all. So we meet...he is precious, sweet and humble. So then I kind of take a step back and start watching them together. Jaime is standing in her usual spot "nook"-the corner of the dining room and kitchen counter. This is her spot. It is so cute. She leans up against the counter top and checks her emails and uses her computer right there all the time. So she is there and he is sitting at the kitchen table. Well gosh, I could go on and on and I am realizing that I already am. Haha I could write a whole novel about their cuteness...but I will try not to. (Try being the key word here folks).
Anywho, they are kinda joking, teasing each-other, he is kind of picking on her and her cute little quirky qualities. I can already see and feel the chemistry. The fact that he even notices those small innuendos and cute quirks about her is priceless. In my head I am pretty much planning their wedding right then and there.

Then I open my big mouth...oops! I tend to have "insert foot in mouth" moments. Here we are...all three of us joking and laughing (a sweet encounter) and then I say, "well Jaime's been going on all these dates and I just knew all along that you were the one." Uhmmm hello?!?!? Could I be more obvious or crazy?!?! hehehe well right after it comes out of my mouth I realize what I have just done. I told on her ( going on lots of dates) and I kind of jumped the gun on him being the one...but in my mind I already knew it. Well he was really funny and light about it...totally gave him more amo to tease her about all her dates. "All these dates huh?" he says. She smirks and laughs. I said "She is kind of really popular..." it worked out because he knew he had competition...Jaime was in high-demand...why wouldn't she be...she is amazing.

So then I say to him..."no seriously you get the golden star. It is a big deal that I am meeting you, I have not met any of the other first-dates...I knew from the first night that I heard about you..." He replies, "wait, when did you hear about me?" I thought back to the very first night...but how could I possibly tell him that Jaime's mom and sister were both in on all this?!?! too much too soon. Oops again...digging a hole for myself! Might as well just bury myself...it's too late now. He graciously participated in the whole exchange and was very cool about it. Another good sign : ) It is really sweet and cute after all...the whole story is. God turns everything around for good...even the little silly things.

So from that point on, they continued dating...and I kept saying "he is the one." Poor Jaime probably got sick of me saying it...she was trying to be practical and not get her hopes up too high...and here I was the PB & J cheerleader. But LOVE is just not practical...you just fall and fall hard. But it is the safest place to fall...fall into LOVE!!! Fast-forward eight months later...on their 8 month anniversary from that first date...he pops the question. 1...2...3...collective Awwwww!!! There is soo much more to this story. It is just proof of God's perfect timing. Jaime and Brian both paitently waited on the Lord. Never settled for less than what they knew he had for them. Trust HIS plan and sovereignty. Sought first HIS kingdom, wholeheartedly serving the Lord and honoring HIM with their lives. Glorifying the Lord individually and now united in Christ for His glory!


"Recently, a man I don't know saw a triangle over me. He saw me running toward my Kingdom purpose and destiny up one side, and saw my future husband running toward his Kingdom purpose up the other side. We could not see each other, but would meet at the top when our purpose collided. When you understand the TRUE LOVE of the Father, you will be NEVER fall for a cheap imitation!!!!"


They are both worship leaders...Brian is now the worship pastor at a church in tennessee and Jaime sings at Kingwood...but soon...very soon they will be singing and worshiping the Lord together at Kingsport in Tennessee. God reconnecting them after all these years is just the sweetest thing. You just never know...you may have already met him...your soul-mate...but God is just preparing the perfect time. If you are still waiting just know that God has you waiting because He had faith in you. He knows you are stronger. He is still preparing you and working on him...the longer the wait the sweeter it is. You are getter better everyday and so is he...so keep waiting. Everything good is worth the wait.

The end. Actually...the BEGINNING...




God is like...

On the lighter side ~

God is like... BAYER ASPIRIN ~ He works miracles.
God is like... a FORD ~ He's got a better idea.
God is like... COKE ~He's the real thing.
God is like... HALLMARK CARDS ~ He cares enough to send His very best.
God is like... TIDE ~He gets the stains out that others leave behind.
God is like... GENERAL ELECTRIC ~ He brings good things to life.
God is like... SEARS ~ He has everything.
God is like... ALKA-SELTZER ~ Try him, you'll like Him.
God is like... SCOTCH TAPE ~ You can't see him, but you know He's there.
God is like... DELTA AIRLINES ~ He's ready when you are.
God is like... ALLSTATE ~ You're in good hands with Him.
God is like... VO-5 Hair Spray ~ He holds through all kinds of weather.
God is like... DIAL SOAP ~ Aren't you glad you have Him? Don't you wish everybody did?
God is like... the U.S. POST OFFICE ~ Neither rain, nor snow, nor sleet nor ice will keep Him from His appointed destination.

Broken Land

A couple songs/poems I wrote a while back...

Broken Land

As I flip through the Bible, the holy leaves
The turning pages flap like angels wings
Your word is firm, Holy and True
I seek first your kingdom-in all that I do
Speaking me gently into each day
A roadmap to show me the life and the way

Spirit guide us, in this broken land
Carry us Father, in your hands
Strangers and aliens in this place
This pilgrimage leaves us broken and worn
But for this very purpose we were born
You paid the cost
So we save the lost

An ever-changing world
A broken land
We cry out to you
To see you plan
They search for what they're living for
Hunger for something- for so much more
Pour us out into their souls
Mend, heal and complete this land
Before we sink into quick sand




Your heart: A broken land

A soft heart, God can penetrate
but hardened, How can He save?
This broken land that is your heart
The wall you've built, keeps us apart
Fears rule and reign this sacred land
Instead of God's great loving hand
Perfect love, casts out all fear
Surrender your heart to Him my dear

She doesn't feel safe
so she shuts down, protects
Her inner child, you've never met
Guarding the door of her heart
It's locked away, set apart
No way in, no way out
But that's what love's all about
There's an army defending
No beginning, no ending

The HEART

My mission is true freedom in Christ. Authenticity. Finding your inner man-inner self hidden in God. Who God intended you to be. The more we get to know ourselves, the deeper we go within our hearts with the Lord. And the deeper we know Him, the stronger our bonds with Him are. Our true self is revealed through the trials, through the fire, through asking and allowing God to search our hearts. "Search me Oh God and know my heart, test me and know my anxious thoughts, see of there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the path everlasting" Psalm 139:23-24. It takes courage to ask God to spotlight our hearts and show us what is hidden deep within, show us who we are. The more He brings what is hidden to the light the more He can heal. The more healing, the more freedom...the more freedom, the more you can be free to be you! The more freedom, the more we can let HIS light shine through us...no blockages or lampshades covering His light within us. "I'm free to be me, and you're free to be you."


Our true self is inside of each of us, just waiting to break free, waiting to be born, waiting to fully come alive to everything He designed us for, individually. The moments of pain and trials show us our strengths and weaknesses...build upon your strengths with the Lord. Delegate your weaknesses and lean on HIM. Whatever you are not, HE will be that for you. We all have an impending birth...coming fully alive to who He always created you to be....it is a process, one day at a time. We never arrive, as apostle Paul said...we are always at the foot of the cross...but growing and maturing up into Christ.

"My comfort would prefer for me to be numb, and avoid the impending birth of who I was born to become"-C.S. Lewis song.

"The more I look inside, the more you mean to me. I see you here, I see you there, feel you everywhere." Some people think it is selfish to delve deep within your heart and go on the journey to learn about your true self. It is actually the most selfless thing you can do. Through delving deep within your heart before the Lord and with the Lord, the more your identity is rooted and grounded in HIM. The more you let Him reveal your heart and heal your heart , the more resources you then have to give others. That self-awareness is crucial and is a part of discovering your destiny. Design=destiny. God wants you to walk in what He has called you for, what He has prepared you for. The path that you walk on will prepare you for what God has prepared for you!

You have to lose your life to find it...give Him your life, your heart, surrender it fully to Him everyday...let Him take the wheel and guide you on your inner and outer journey. You will be amazed and what He is going to show you!!!!

HE cares about the heart, He looks at the heart...so should we! Being open and honest with ourselves is the first step to being open and honest with God.


Some verses:
You clean the outside of the cup and dish, but inside they are unclean. Blind Pharisee! First clean the inside of the cup and dish, and then the outside also will be clean. Matthew 23:27

I pray that the EYES of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know his incomparably great power for us who believe. --Esphesians 1:18-19

I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you -- Ezekiel 36:26

Tremble and do not sin; when you are on your beds, search your hearts and be silent. Psalm 4:4

As a fair exchange—I speak as to my children-open wide your hearts also. 2 Cor. 6:13


I know, my God, that you test the heart and are pleased with INTEGRITY. All these things I have given willingly and with honest intent. 1 Chronicles 29:17


“But this is what you concealed in your heart, and I know that this was in your mind. Job 10:13



Providence:1 a life mapped out by providence fate, destiny, God's will, divine intervention, predestination, predetermination, the stars; one's lot (in life); archaic one's portion.






The quiet in the end

"You wanna know how much value something has you look at what it costs...it cost everything to buy you! That is your worth! That is how valuable YOU are to God!"-Chris Hodges. You didn't choose Him, He chose you!
He is pouring this into my heart this morning!!! "You are chosen, you are a royal priesthood." 1 Peter 2:9

"It's God's own truth, nothing could be plainer: God plays no favorites! It makes no difference who you are or where you're from—if you want God and are ready to do as he says, the door is open." Acts 10:35

DREAM BIG!!!!! God will do MORE than your BIG dream..."MORE than you can ask, think and imagine." Ephesians 3:20

Dreams come a few sizes too BIG so that you can grow into them...think way outside the box because God cannot be boxed in. Live in HIS freedom! He wants to set you free everyday from the chains of this world, the prisons of your past, the slavery to humans. Even if the whole world thinks you are a "crazy Christian" or just straight up crazy...God doesn't. There is but ONE ultimate authority...God is the only one...you don't need anyone else's approval...God has already approved! Not by works but by grace and through grace so that no one can boast of this. Think about all the disciples and all the people in the Bible who others thought were crazy, worthless, poor, not successful according to the world's view of "success," radical, not good enough, not talented enough, a mess...those are who He chose...those are who He uses.
Maybe nobody gets it but you and God...that is enough. If He has told you, put it in your heart, showed you...that is all that matters. Get really quiet, listen for His voice, His whisper, unplug the world...He is calling you. "In rest...quietness and trust is your strength."Isaiah 31:15. Get in touch with your heart, with your truth, with His truth, with the movements of your heart...if we lie to ourselves we are lying to God. The more we live in His freedom the more His light shines through us!

God grant us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change
Courage to change the things we can
and Wisdom to know the difference.

It takes courage.

"It all comes down to this...the quiet in the end, I listen for your voice, recovery begins"




LOVE day

Mom sent me a Valentine!!!! awwwwwww!!!!! It is beautiful inside and out just like her! She handmade ALL of her Valentines this year, which I just LOVE because while making them she is pouring in her time, love and energy into each and everyday card. Very sentimental, unique, special and comes from the heart! My Grandma also sent me and my roommate Valentine's gifts and cards...soo sweet!!! Just so thoughtful-it really truly is the thought (from the heart) that counts the most! I love sending cards to people and I love getting cards. It is just a fun way to bless others, surprise them with some love in an envelope when they least expect it. One of my best friends sent me a birthday present all the way from Washington...it was a beautiful fairy journal and some sweet spicy special tea handcrafted from Seattle...on the inside of the journal it reads "Happy 25th Birthday Mally. This is a journal and some tea for your morning routine. I love you!!!" Now this means soo much too because after driving across the country together we really bonded. We both spent so much time together in and out of the car, day in day out, morning, noon and night traveling together. So she really paid attention to what I do...and she saw me get up early every morning and read the Bible, journal and drink my tea...so this was such a special gift...again from the HEART. And she knows I like sweet & spicy flavored teas so I am excited to try it this new special one for the first time : ) Yay!!! Fills my love cup! Happy LOVE day (almost) everyone!!! Everyday is LOVE day because God IS love! xoxoxoxooxoxoxox

A snowy walk with me : )

Journey not a destination

All these trials all this pain
There is so much more I've gained
A journey, a season
A far greater reason
Not just the move, not just the place
It was my greatest leap of faith
Walking on this lonely road
A rebirth like I've never known
New creation, new life
New challenge, new strife
Learning how to truly fly
With every tear that I've cried
He set me free another mile
Who I was born to become
Authentic gift from up above
This journey had a hidden treasure
Which only God and I could measure
My true self hidden deep within
My true self only found in Him
There's nothing greater I could win

Purpose, healing, boundaries-As the LORD leads

The excerpt I am about to insert below pretty much says it all! And I mean it...well it says it waaaayyy better than I can. So I don't really even need to say much...it speaks for itself...it speaks volumes. But here is my little itty bitty human opinion anyways. I believe (just a human opinion) that lack of boundaries (ie. ppl. pleasing rather than God-pleasing) manifests physically in our lives in negative ways. To be spirit led we must not forgo boundary setting on an emotional and/or physical level. The emotional pain this causes us becomes physical pain, illness, disease. We turn that pain inward unknowingly and our bodies react to it. A lot of times when someone says he/she is ill, everyone wants to jump on the prayer band-wagon and pray over the person, give them scripture on healing...etc. This ALL good but I believe it must be Holy Spirit led. There is no "one-size fits all" with any situation, person, circumstance. Yes prayer is always an answer, THE answer (don't get me wrong)...but we must get to the root of this ailment and see where and why it started in the first place. In some (maybe many) cases, God is using the illness to speak to the person, saying, "Hey you are not taking care of your earthly vessel which I have loaned to you, in order to do my work on earth."
Yes, God can heal in one instant, by faith you are healed. He is sovereign and HE will heal when and how He wants. We must do the footwork. If we are not setting healthy boundaries, God cannot set them for us, but He can and will slow us down one way or another and physical illness is the quickest fastest way He can stop us. We will get into enough pain to where we have to set a boundary whether we want to or not. Okay so that is my itty bitty human opinion...and something I am learning one day at a time with God's help and guidance and most importantly HIS love!!! Boundary setting is one of the hardest things I have ever had to learn (continuously learning) but it is a must if I am to live out God's plan and will for my life. It is like the oxygen mask of self-care...when you are on the flight you must put on your oxygen mask first before you can help anyone else.

"Another way to discern our distinctive life is from the perspective of discovering our 'sealed orders' from God. Sealed orders, historically, referred to specific written instructions given, for example, to the captain of a ship regarding his destination or mission. They are not to be opened until a specified time or place is reached. It is as if God has given each one of us sealed orders for our lives. He invites us to open them by paying attention to the littler everyday things that give us life...'When I am in touch with the special purpose of my life in carrying out my sealed orders, I have a profound feeling of consolation or rightness and m whole BODY relaxes. I believe the sense of rightness expresses itself physiologically bc the purpose of our life is built into the very cells of our body.'"